I love working alone. I hate group thinking. I am always by myself. I live in my head, there is a saying artist work best alone. I can't blend with people.
“Work alone. You're going to be best able to design revolutionary products and features if you're working on your own. Not a committee. Not a team.”Susan Cain
“Artists work best alone. Work alone.” Steve Wozniak, iWoz
I always try to express my momentary feelings and perspective to my artboard. It changes moment by moment. I try to capture that particular feeling of a topic and express it using various graphic design tools, applying design principles and defining that feelings of that topic. Another words try to communicate my feelings or perspective through that visuals. Try to define my own path. Strive for finding multiple solutions to achieve. Strive for achieving an unique visual acuity that has never seen before. Finding something unique and different. I try to create new clichés, not adhere to those that were defined by generations passed. I strongly value my own judgment. When I am working I try not to over think the process. I just do it and try to generate various possible outcomes on a certain time frame (until I can not hold my attention on that topic). I once heard that great art is an unconscious creation. Then I decide suitable and best option among the possible outcomes.
Things that I create through this process is something I am very serious about and something I am proud of. I guess the artworks becomes more interesting as the days passes.
I think helping friends/acquaintances turns out to be more beneficial than working for other in exchange of money.
But people are smart or every strategic. There's lot of things going on, on peoples mind. I can't perform strategic. I am often open minded or openly express about my opinion. Sometimes I express my opinion without any filtration. Which is true from my heart. And that is when I loose my power or control. I don't or can't send mixed feelings about my opinion. I believe my gut decision very much. According to Daniel Kahneman this is thinking fast. I guess am the bitch of my brain. Over the few years I am trying to blend in. But I am not succeeding. I disagree a lot of things which is honestly I disagree. I am going to face very hard times in the coming days. Because of my wrong mental framework and unwillingness to change, I will be disappointed in life (I guess).
I also don't see any hope in my life. I feel helpless too. Only one or two things I can control. Everything else is out of control. There's a very little to influence. What a boring life to live.
I hope one day god may give mercy on me then I might be normal/calm/peaceful/successful.
Initial inspiration might be someone or something or some event. But if you try to emulate 100% of that event or copy something or try to be someone, it doesn't work like that way. It usually turns out something different from the original event or the person. It is OK to get inspired by something, or someone else in the beginning, but It's your decision that will effect your end result. You have to correct it along the way and keep up with your standards. It's your decision where to set your standards. You cannot work on someone else's standards.
So the conclusion is get inspired by someone else, something or some event. Never try to 100% emulate that event, or that person or that thing. Correct your decision with your standards along the way. It will be different/better/worse from your original inspiration. It will not be the same. You cannot have the original inspiration, it's someone else's. It's not your property. You have to define your own path. You have to create your own moment in life. People might love it or hate it, but it will be your original idea.
I don't see any promising technology or any inspiring technology in the future. What is the thing that people will get excited about in the next 5/10 years? To me, I am seeing the future is very dull.